Yes it is a cold day....it is windy, cold and snowy...for friends, family and readers who are in warm weather I am very JEALOUS!!!!!!!
So my topic is purusharthas...they are four pillars of life. Dharma (duty, ethics), artha (prosperity, wealth), kama (pleasure), moksha (pursuit of liberation)....To help me focus on me I am going to go through each one on different days....so today is Dharma
What is my role in this world?
I think I have many roles...wife, daughter, sister, friend, student. I am a caregiver for the students I work with and I am a mother...just waiting for a child.
What are my obligations, which ones feel right?
My first reaction is that I have no obligations...but I know that this is not true. I have obligations to my family to be there to support them, I am obligated to keep my house clean and working. I need to go to work and do a good job. I feel obligated to go beyond my job description to support my students..to be honest I feel all of these are right. When I am not doing these things I feel like I am not holding up my end of the bargin in life.
When am I serving the highest good, what am I doing?
The greatest good I can serve is to be a mother I believe that this is why I will get pregnant...because I am meant to help guide another little soul. Currently when I am working with my students is very important. The kids I work with are at risk and in desperate need of support and love. They require guidance it is my honour to work with them.
Am I on the path for the good?
yes, yes, yes. I am working very hard to help my little family grow and I work very hard in my job.
How can I best serve the world around me?
I believe by looking after myself and taking time to practice yoga, go to the gym and trainer and giving myself time I will be a better person for it. I think it allows me to be prepared to meet my obligations and allows me to have the energy to do my job and to prepare for my life as a mother.
1/31/2010
1/28/2010
AWARDED!!!!!
Thats right I have won my first blog award!!!
I am so excited, thanks so much to 'type A' for the shout out!
The instructions that go along with this award are as follows:
* Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
* Copy the award and place it in your blog.
* Link the person who nominated you for this award.
* Tell us 7 interesting things about you.
* Nominate 7 bloggers.
* Post the links to the 7 bloggers you nominate.
So here are 7 things about me
1. I have celiac disease, which means I cannot eat ANY gluten, or I will get very sick
2. I married my best friend. We had known each other all through highschool and then one day in college POW! fell in love instantly (like Chandler and Monica from friends)
3. One day I hope to be a yoga instructor speicalizing in fertility
4. I work with at risk youth and love the fact that it makes me feel like a teenager everyday
5. I wake up every morning singing a song, it never fails and it is always a different song
6. At Christmas time because I am small (4 11 1/2) and am always smiling children wave and smile at me because they think I am an elf
7. Dispite my size people never realize how small I am. My personality is very big and working with the youth I do I come across larger than I am.
Seven Bloggers I pass this on to
http://hipandurbangirl.blogspot.com/
http://youngbutinfertile.blogspot.com/
http://ready2bmom.blogspot.com/
http://fertilitychick.blogspot.com/
http://imbabyhungry.blogspot.com/
http://dontscareeasy.blogspot.com/
http://999reasonstolaughatinfertility.blogspot.com/
Unfourtunatly....I can't get the picture for the award to work but no matter :D
I am so excited, thanks so much to 'type A' for the shout out!
The instructions that go along with this award are as follows:
* Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
* Copy the award and place it in your blog.
* Link the person who nominated you for this award.
* Tell us 7 interesting things about you.
* Nominate 7 bloggers.
* Post the links to the 7 bloggers you nominate.
So here are 7 things about me
1. I have celiac disease, which means I cannot eat ANY gluten, or I will get very sick
2. I married my best friend. We had known each other all through highschool and then one day in college POW! fell in love instantly (like Chandler and Monica from friends)
3. One day I hope to be a yoga instructor speicalizing in fertility
4. I work with at risk youth and love the fact that it makes me feel like a teenager everyday
5. I wake up every morning singing a song, it never fails and it is always a different song
6. At Christmas time because I am small (4 11 1/2) and am always smiling children wave and smile at me because they think I am an elf
7. Dispite my size people never realize how small I am. My personality is very big and working with the youth I do I come across larger than I am.
Seven Bloggers I pass this on to
http://hipandurbangirl.blogspot.com/
http://youngbutinfertile.blogspot.com/
http://ready2bmom.blogspot.com/
http://fertilitychick.blogspot.com/
http://imbabyhungry.blogspot.com/
http://dontscareeasy.blogspot.com/
http://999reasonstolaughatinfertility.blogspot.com/
Unfourtunatly....I can't get the picture for the award to work but no matter :D
Power of positive thinking
Yesterday I had a session with my trainer/life coach, who by the way is AMAZING....we spent the hour working on my physical body through pilates and yoga and working on my emotional well being.
During this session we talked a lot about the power of positive thinking. I have always been a believer in fate, I believe things happen for a reason but I never have really bought into the idea that we have control over these things by putting out positive messages. However during these past few months I have found myself reading a lot of sad and negative posts on message boards and blogs and I realized these sometimes brought me down and I was then creating negative energy. I understand the need to vent and be angry but for me it is toxic and so I am now trying to put out and take in positive energy.
I am beginning to see the purpose in putting out positive thought and that it will help you get the results you want and help your soul along the way.
So I searched last night for positive affirmations around fertility and have posted them on my mirror in my bathroom, my car dashboard and my comptuer at work. My hope is that by having these around me I will begin to truley believe these affirmations and positive outcomes will come.
One of my favourite ones I have found is...
I release all my fears and concerns about infertility and I declare myself fertile
I think this is a very powerful message....so often during fertility treatments people refer to themselves as infertile...but in reality if we have eggs and they get released we are in fact fertile. Perhaps by changing our thinking we can help our body reach its full FERTILE potential.
So my goal for the rest of my two week wait is to continue with my power of positive think and repeat my new mantra over and over again. On February 11 I will get a call saying I am pregnant.
Send those positive vibes out for me!
During this session we talked a lot about the power of positive thinking. I have always been a believer in fate, I believe things happen for a reason but I never have really bought into the idea that we have control over these things by putting out positive messages. However during these past few months I have found myself reading a lot of sad and negative posts on message boards and blogs and I realized these sometimes brought me down and I was then creating negative energy. I understand the need to vent and be angry but for me it is toxic and so I am now trying to put out and take in positive energy.
I am beginning to see the purpose in putting out positive thought and that it will help you get the results you want and help your soul along the way.
So I searched last night for positive affirmations around fertility and have posted them on my mirror in my bathroom, my car dashboard and my comptuer at work. My hope is that by having these around me I will begin to truley believe these affirmations and positive outcomes will come.
One of my favourite ones I have found is...
I release all my fears and concerns about infertility and I declare myself fertile
I think this is a very powerful message....so often during fertility treatments people refer to themselves as infertile...but in reality if we have eggs and they get released we are in fact fertile. Perhaps by changing our thinking we can help our body reach its full FERTILE potential.
So my goal for the rest of my two week wait is to continue with my power of positive think and repeat my new mantra over and over again. On February 11 I will get a call saying I am pregnant.
Send those positive vibes out for me!
1/26/2010
Dr. says.......
Well I had my meeting with my fertility doctor today. All my tests came back positive. Hubby's test came back positive.....this is good news.
We discussed how things were going with all the various medications. I mentioned that the clomid/sereophene was causing lack of fluid. He said with that being an issue than IUI is the best option. It gives the little guys an opportunity to get right ino the tubes with no detours.
I was much calmer about the suggestion of IUI this time, in fact he was so calm and matter of fact that it made it seem like not a huge deal. So with that, if things don't go POSITIVE this cycle (fingers crossed that they do) than we will do up to two cycles of IUI. If....(please, please..no) things don't work out, than we will go back and meet with the Dr. to see what the next steps are.
It is funny once you get use to the fact that having a baby the easy, carefree way is not going to happen, you really get use to all of this stuff. In fact it seems fairly natural to me, having other people involved in the process does not bother me. I actually feel really supported, sort of like I know there are always people there to answer my questions and support me and hubby.
I also did my ultrasound today and yes I HAVE ovulated so now the two week wait begins. My goal is to remain calm and to remain me.
We discussed how things were going with all the various medications. I mentioned that the clomid/sereophene was causing lack of fluid. He said with that being an issue than IUI is the best option. It gives the little guys an opportunity to get right ino the tubes with no detours.
I was much calmer about the suggestion of IUI this time, in fact he was so calm and matter of fact that it made it seem like not a huge deal. So with that, if things don't go POSITIVE this cycle (fingers crossed that they do) than we will do up to two cycles of IUI. If....(please, please..no) things don't work out, than we will go back and meet with the Dr. to see what the next steps are.
It is funny once you get use to the fact that having a baby the easy, carefree way is not going to happen, you really get use to all of this stuff. In fact it seems fairly natural to me, having other people involved in the process does not bother me. I actually feel really supported, sort of like I know there are always people there to answer my questions and support me and hubby.
I also did my ultrasound today and yes I HAVE ovulated so now the two week wait begins. My goal is to remain calm and to remain me.
1/25/2010
"F" That
So I have been doing some research, as one tends to do when they are in the world of infertility...The reason for this research is that I have noticed that I have gained a few pounds since starting this fertility treatment thing. From all my blog and message board reading it seems that I am not alone. Now the reasons for this weight gain is numerous. First is the medication, yes I can blame the medication for a little bit...the bloating and what not. Plus the hormones being pumped into me can cause crazy chocolate cravings. The second is the stress...I eat when I am stressed that is a fact and this is stressful. So, what do I have to say to this weight gain and the possibility of more weight gain...."F" that!
I refuse to look like a a doughy version of me. I have never been skinny...but I am currently healthy..could lose a little more weight but my doctors are happy and so am I. So to stop this crisis and yes for me..someone who has struggled their whole life with weight it is a ciris. I have gotten my butt back into gear and back to the gym. To go to the gym I need to feel good so I am going to invest in some new workout clothes. I don't want my fertility treatments to change who I am or what my goals are....
I refuse to look like a a doughy version of me. I have never been skinny...but I am currently healthy..could lose a little more weight but my doctors are happy and so am I. So to stop this crisis and yes for me..someone who has struggled their whole life with weight it is a ciris. I have gotten my butt back into gear and back to the gym. To go to the gym I need to feel good so I am going to invest in some new workout clothes. I don't want my fertility treatments to change who I am or what my goals are....
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