As I sit here in bed waiting for my progesterone to work through my body so I can actually get up and walk around I have a confession to make.....I have secretly been going to the Babies'R'us website and putting things on a wish list! Yes I know very extreme in fact I am pretty embarrassed by the whole thing but for that short time when I am looking at things like Bumbo seats or strollers I feel good and hopeful. I rationalize it that someday I will need these things and by then I will have done my research so why not! Now I know this is not actually that surprising and unusual, in fact I know women who are trying and get pregnant and have gone out a bought tons of baby clothes....I won't do that, that I draw a line at. But for them it does the same as for me looking at the websites...it makes us feel good, whole, hopeful.



Ok, so I am having to take these progesterone pills...well actually they are suppositories, vaginal ones I know, I know to much info...anyways they are really quite gross....I actually dread having to use them and I have to use them 3 times a day!
For those of you who don't know progesterone is used to build up the uterine lining so that if by chance a sperm and egg do meet they will be able to snuggle into the lining. I am on this because my luteal phase is to short, that is the phase after ovulation and with the progesterone I have a better chance of keeping the baby....however it is really gross to do!
But I am not going to let that deter me.....I have already had countless number of internal ultrasounds and this is just another thing.

With this being my first round I am very hopeful, all the doctors and nurses are very positive, it makes me think, why not the first time around. I know that IF it is not this time.....it is going to be hard. It is going to really suck actually. When I am at Isis I can tell the women who have been through this over and over again.....they seem very tired and sad.....my fear is that I will one day be one of those women. It is my goal to remain positive! In fact this could be it right now I could have little cells nestling in me right now! Fingers crossed, wish me luck :D


Fertility and medication

Well this is my first ever blog....I am not a writer by any means but I have always enjoyed journalling and thought why not try this modern day form of a journal.

My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for 4 years....we have tried natural means (accupuncture, tinctures, herbal pills, royal jelly and so on) we have tried 'taking a break' from trying...we were told once we stopped trying it would happen for us. It didn't. Now four years later we have started fertility treatments.

I am now a client of Isis Fertility Treatment centre, it is wonderful by the way. This is my first cycle with them and I have started on all the appropriate medicaitons. Day 3-7 I was on clomid, then I did my HCG shot. I was then told to go home and 'get busy' with the hubby for 3 days...when I went back I found out I had ovualted 2-3 eggs and am now on progesterone. We will not wait and see. it is very strange to have so many people involved in your fertility but for some reason it does not bother me..infact it makes me feel good knowoing I have all those people in my corner wanting to help us.

I hope to use this blog to help me get stuff on my chest and to perhaps share with other people who are going through similar things.......