to much

I feel like I have so much I need to say and want to say and am not able to get it down...I am not sure what to say. I have been working hard with my Osteopath and Naturopath and I am pleased with my personal commitment to them and their procedures. However I have so much junk building its self up in me regarding pregnancy and infertility. I want to say so much but am not ready to write I guess. But I am here. I am present in my life and I am working towards my goal.