Well last night the cramps began. I knew, I knew it was not implantation cramps I knew what it was. This morning confirmation. No need to do the pregnancy blood test on the 11th, it would be negative. Today I feel pretty good. Not great but I am managing. I so wish it had been positive this month but it wasen't and there is only so much a girl can do....
Wednesday I go for my 3 day u/s check, to make sure everything looks good to start this next cycle. This cycle will be our first IUI cycle...makes me a little nervous and a little more hopeful which in turn than makes me more nervous...you get the idea.
I am really trying to look within myself right now..If I say I am going to go to the gym why don't I go, if I say I am going to eat better why don't I? Something to work on this cycle.
One of the gifts this adventure has given me is the ability to look within myself, be critical towards my lifestyle or habits and want to change them. I do not want to be that person who sabotages themselves and gains weight and then wonders why she can't get pregnant. I am a little chubby to begin with...I don't need anymore fat on me to make my body work any harder. I am trying to get rid of that fat. Today though, I was in La Senza trying on bras and I felt like a pilsbury dough girl. Yuck. Need to get working.